It’s DONE!

I’ve FINALLY completed my ‘project vw’ one page summary document ! OMG it took so long to work my way through all those notes scribbled on bits of paper – sorting them into topic groups, & throwing out useless information!! After a few days I was so sick of scribbled notes on pieces of paper I swore NEVER to create that kind of mess again – & promptly assigned 1 small notebook to the task of holding all my scribbled notes in future!

Then came the draft’s, & redrafts, trying to figure out how to structure it so it was truthful to me, honestly said why it mattered, to me, that I take on living a self directed life. I’ve been working solidly on it for over two weeks – TWO WEEKS! The more I rewrote it, the better clarity I gained, but then it also felt not ‘there’ yet – felt it wasn’t YET saying what I needed to have the clarity about. I almost gave up this week – I got so tired of having to keep rewriting things, trying to get to the heart of what matters to me, in as few words as possible! But I hung in there – thinking surely I must be almost ‘there’, surely there can’t be much more rewriting to be done? I’d done this much, I figured I may as well go all the way!

Yesterday, I finished it! It felt complete, ‘there’, & I am really glad I spent all that time writing & rewriting it. Basically it’s an honest, straight up pep talk to myself, something I can quickly read when the going gets tough, & I start doubting myself. This one page summary will kick my ass if I need it,  & always keep me travelling in the direction I want to go. For that, I am very grateful!

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Vicky xxx

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