Sorry about the radio silence this last month, but before moving on from 2019, I like to spend some time glancing back over the year & appreciating all the learnings, influences & achievements that I’ve experienced, taking a moment to zoom out & see an overview of my progress – check in with myself to see if I did achieve most of what I wanted to overall – & paying attention to what worked well for me. After that it’s brainstorming what I’d like to do next, building on the experience & progress I’ve made, then looking it over & prioritizing what top 3 projects I feel are the most significant for me to achieve in 2020 – & the rest get PARKED!
Glancing back, I am most proud of the fact that despite the increasing financial difficulties, I am persistently keeping the promise to myself to prioritize creativity in my life, spending most of my time MAKING things. Along the way, somewhere, it seems the process of creating has become my personal definition of success! So long as I am MAKING something, I’m golden about my life.
2019, overall, has been a blast of a year with many valuable insights & surprise discoveries. Most surprising was experiencing the difference between writing the words about what I want to become, then reading back over it & FEELING the achievement of it, that I’m actually living what I wrote – totally able to go my own way & do my own thing – working WITH myself 100% – aligned & connected.
For the first time in my adult life – & I have 58 years ‘life experience’ to date – I do actually believe in myself & my creative abilities, whether others do or not. I think the last time I felt like that I was about 6 years old – when I simply didn’t believe anyone who said I couldn’t be whatever I wanted!!! I am relieved (!), & grateful, to finally be back ‘at home’ in myself, content being ordinary ‘me’. I’m no longer afraid to be my free spirited creative self – being taken for unknown destination rides by my curiosity – & I no longer avoid the feeling that I’m an odd duck, because I no longer edit myself to ‘fit in’. How spiffing (old British slang word for splendid / excellent) is that ?!
Vicky xxx
